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I honestly have not forgotten about this site. It’s the fact that I haven’t been able to get anything done outside of work and still don’t have a charger for my laptop which is holding me back. I’ve been working on bits and pieces of the new site changes and such that will fall into place sooner rather than later. I don’t have much of an explanation or the time to comment everyone back for the second time in a row..oh how great of me. However you can just read this post and not comment haha. I would understand completely.

I work anywhere from 40-60 hours a week so you’ve got to understand that I am trying. I have living situations that I’m working out. Personal situations and some school stuff on top of that so it’s crazy. This is actually my first off-day since last week? I know most people get two off days but hah..I wish. :( This will change after things settle down and I get paid enjoy my wealth haha. See how temporary things start off as permanent?

Seriously though I wasn’t going to update my blog until I got my charger and everything but there’s a situation at work that’s pissing me off. I will probably on into full detail in a Livejournal entry because it’s personal but I’m having a problem with stupid females.  I don’t know what is wrong with my generation but between these ages of 18-24 I’m having an issue with a lot of females in this city I reside in. I know two females who are both 22 years old. One has two children and the other recently graduated from college. Both of these females are in “long term relationships” with older men for a period of 4 years. The fact that both of these females would rather stay in their relationships with these men who both have been unfaithful. One does not provide of his children; the other has been involved with another female of 18 years, 6 years younger than he is at their shared place of work.

On top of that, you know, the long list of things they don’t do. They both have been called outside of their names by these little boys because real men don’t act like that. Yet throughout the four years of ignorance, at the end of every day you hear these same stupid excuses as: We have kids together. Sometimes he’s okay. I really do love him. We can make it.

Everyday I think to myself and tell them: So? Sometimes. LOL. Does he love you? No you’re not making it. You never will. First of all, for the life of me, I would never continue to bare children with a man who does not have any solid plans of a future with me or for my children.  Continue is the bolded word because we all make mistakes but planning on having multiple children with this person? Who has disrespected you in front of both of your kids. Endangered their lives..and doesn’t just care about you? LOL ok! I could understand if he was trying, but he isn’t even doing that.

Also just because a person has a job and an education does not mean he’s any better than anyone else. It’s worse that the fellow with the master’s degree is trying not only to get his “girlfriend” fired and look like a complete idiot to everyone in the company. He’s also degraded her just today in front of all of her co-workers, the CEO, and has her in tears at her place of work because he said she’s not educated enough to fulfill her duties. Why would you want to stay with someone who degrades you constantly is beyond me? This isn’t the first time this situation has happened and this certainly will not be the last. They both constantly come up with more and more excuses for these little boys they’re heavily involved with and I can’t understand for the life of me: why do YOU keep running back? Because they’ll leave for a few days and run straight back.

Ladies and gentlemen as well, respect yourself. If you don’t have self-respect you don’t need to be dating at all. A lack of self-respect will cause not only emotional damage to yourself, but others involved. Why would you want to drag your children through a situation that can just be terminated and people tell you all of the time to leave? There is NO true love on this earth that comes to the point where it constantly has you feeling destructed. Anyone who truly says they care about you would never drive you to the point where you choose between your family and them, especially your only children. The world we live in.

Mood :  Excited
 Estelle - American Boy

No, I still don’t have my charger. My laptop is like super dead. I miss it alot. I hate this theme and I wish I would just stop being lazy and download a temporary theme or something. It’s hard to do without your regular FTP program. I hate webFTP & things of that nature. I have never found having this site to be that serious where I just needed to use online FTP programs. Sorry. haha

I’ve actually been extremely busy lately with working. This job has turned out to be a bit more permanent than I thought it would be. Er..heh. I am going to be busy in the next few months planning and working on my life. I haven’t had time to sit down and talk to anyone online sad to say. I’m trying but life has gotten to be a bit much. I’m not planning on closing the site anytime soon but I need to re-arrange my unpredictable schedule so that I can have time to work around it. I can’t accept any affiliate requests obviously because I’m not going to be able to add your name to the sidebar and etc.

So in the past week or so, I’ve bee re-evaluating my life. Looking at some people I called friends and looking at how much they had done for me & vice versa. I realize that I’m the type of person who puts my all into something. It probably shouldn’t be done but I do. I give my everything to make things work out. I try to help people. When I’m a friend, I’m a friend who’s always there for you no matter what. My “friends” weren’t like that for me. I’ve decided that I am no longer dealing with those people, but honestly what type of friend are you? Do you think it’s easy to befriend others? Do you use people? I know it’s not the best thing to say about yourself but obviously there’s plenty of people out there who use others for their personal gain. I’m sure some people will come in here saying I’ve never used anyone and are doing it right now. Do you realize that some people cherish friendships as their family? Yes things happen. People grow apart & etc but there’s no reason for you to be a deceitful and hurtful as a person. Just remember:

Nothing so fortifies a friendship as a belief on the part of one friend that he is superior to the other.
-Honore de Balzac (1799 - 1850)

Also how many of you are seeing the Dark Knight this weekend? I’m beyond hype. :) As if you couldn’t tell by my MySpace. haha.